and i never learned the harsh way of using people for my own pleasure.
i feel disgusted. and so very human, which means there was a fail yup.
i felt those hands around my neck and nope, it wasnt even that scary.
probably i only realized, which being lame in something actually means.
i always give people ten hundred credits ahead. one white knight advanced.
and it never works out.
central mansions, ancient legends on the shelves, unclosed doors down the loft.
it never worth it. because aristocracy doesnt mean those people are the best.
一番と思われる・they are thought to be. but they never knew how to hold it on.
because they are human. and as all of the humans - full of fails and depths.
one step more and i would have felt regret about me being lame as well.
for now i am just one step wise enough to leave the house in the morning.
without saying goodbyes. being wiser not to demand something from those,
who cant hold.
i will be the queen one day.
eating onigiri wth caviar and salmon now for that.
and even if i can return, i know why i wont be returning.
that is why i never needed nominal power in this life.
in reverse, it takes everything that could be for eternity.
fuck *O
i wish my eyes didnt see what i saw today. exactly.
keep learning of bringing this world down, somehow?