there is an awesome difference between someone, who
cant hold and someone, who prevents himself from holding.
in the latter case its latent and can be worked out in years.
believe me, the one who is ready to share the half of his bed,
half of his food and all his time is not the one who cant hold.
if you were able to see yourself, you would have been amazed.

i was amazed greatly.

in general, these are like sweets on the shelves.
when you know, you can take them anytime and
eat, but you wont because you know its not that.
you eat one sweet every day or something like it.
you can eat everything at once, but will it be good?

if the door of this house is opened for me always.
does that mean, i will be going there every day?
nope.

but i have some temptations about eating all the sweets
at once to work out and become used to the limitations,
hence the source of happiness <3