all my sins are refinedly beautiful.
deep enough to be even adored,
low enough not to be claimed aloud.
do not have to be atoned. atoned in advance.
i can not advance only one thing - let them go.
they are repeated and returned, reminding me.
that i could have done better, but have not.
i want the time come, when i will be able
to do perfect and forget at an instant. m.
now it still takes time.
...
bro is saying, i am too child to use people without being attached.
no matter for how long, even if that is one minute. no connection
with being bad or good at it. just the fact, which leads to 不安・
now. always? ever.
i can not erase the child part. hence i have to do better at skills.
out of my bed, out of my head technique.
probably, as the time passes.