i definitely knew, why it was so much abyss.
because it was the place (the host of the place?),
which made me think that there is place in this
world, where i can feel myself happy and free.
on the equal range with my home. with my home.
that is why it became sin. that is why it condemned me.
for the Nights sake,
i had all my hands in blood, being hurt by that mirror glass.
fighting my own reflections and my own eternal instability.
there was no something, that could be defined as harmony.
but hell, how it awesome felt. when you let yourself merging.
i know, there is some method to take it out of me.
i can ask Oliver, he knows. (as if he ever gave me answers)
but the poison is that i do not want it to be out of myself.
that is why i am condemned. over and over again.
two months passed.
how underestimating think, i can finish it off with one word.
the word, which shows how deep you actually give a damn.
気をつけてくれ。
please, be safe for me.
oh, love.
we are not at all ended in this lifetime yet.
is that the everlasting temptation for someone like us?
i am calling your ghost back, i am so weak and guilty.
i am so relieved.