and in the end of the day,
i am calling Ryu for the advice again.
why am i always choosing him,
while having something to hesitate about?
this question is not needed to answer at all.
i wish it had been reversed, sometimes so much.
but i guess it can not be helped.
my everlasting salvation place.
even after three months passed it sounds funny.
again, i wish it had been reversed. but well, well.
i am even ready with all my heart to show it off.
greatly, sadly, cruelly deep. as painful as i can.
because.
when i am being left alone with all these decisions.
shut the fucking up those, who cant grant me them.
and no wonder, i am sharing them with someone else.
i know, i cant be anxious about this.
for that i have too much in the terms of eternal.
probably, that is just a constatation.