you're falling apart and it seems that all you want
is the one you had before you lost control.
bro is right, i am not capable of going through this world alone.
っていうよりも、i do not want to make it alone in this world.
from the early morning there were always people around.
to entertain me, respectively. but without its getting uneasy.
or should i say, i came to the point where got used thats it.
i am not living without back-ups. second, third etc in the range.
when i came home it became difficult. to handle that all.
even the most decayed people have a heart for they feel.
and for sure, they have their ambitions, aims and desires.
last bot not least, their pride is highly immersible.
there are less people, who consider 二番目 worthy enough.
even if it is me, who is offering. even if that is for me alone.
i failed that person because in the end he did not manage.
and i could not give more. he promised that he wont give a damn.
but his pride was ranging ten time ahead of what he was feeling.
i have someone, who finally goes along with the conditions.
since it is so rare to be found, probably i should consider it.
someone, who says that 俺が二番目でもいいし。
something that i desperately need in this way or another.
probably, i should give it a way. since it is self-sacrificing.
for my sake only.
i am not highlighting.
i need someone to spare a time with when bro is busy.
that is not the most adorable role in life to live for back-up.
but there are people thinking, even back-up is adorable.
if it is mine. why should not i find it adorable as well.
night, no matter how you look at it its mutually benefitial.
i've got to take it easy on myself.