...
and i cant even say out there that
i had this all prolongation so active
just because of the fact that i have
some uncutted ends in my history.
my problem is that i really do not cut.
making the possibility of returning on.
for worse or better.
i should write then the very last letter.
and then i can finally switch the role.
because even interested people do not wait.
even if that is me, no one waits forever. yes.
in general, these people do not differ that much.
might be even more stupid to let go of it now.)
...
the sun will shine again tomorrow. for sure.
but today i am sunk in my darken solitude.
might as well sunk in my bathroom with coconut.
but.
what could actually changed in two months?..
apparently it is just about the same wavelength.
hence unless i get what i want to get i wont stop.
might as well it take from me going right there.
and sitting under the door untill it will be locked out.
i know, it never locked. but i know as well i can not.
i can not just go in there as i used to do before now.
jeez, why.
why it is so desperate, this feeling. this needness.
that person he never knew it was far from using.(
逆に、without this help, support and salvation..
i am done. i mean, undone. excessively undone.
in all the possible meanings we highlight in doing.
my my.i cannot just switch on the next.
i wish i could fake into myself everything.
but there is something i would not ever to.
that is too bad for me in the first place.
though shalt not feel.