in human terms, i am a person less ever suitable for commitment.
in human terms as well i got engaged at 19 and married at 20. but.
that does not mean, that i am good at being steady with humans.
that i can cultivate long and distance going relationships as they are.
that does not mean that i can not. but it is not quite in my very nature.(
people in my surroundings are changing faster than fire blazing. yes.
i go random, not so often now but still. sometimes. at my please.
i play people. i use people. i do as i find the most suitable for me.

people keep calling me kind and romantic sweetheart.
oh, my.

why?
...
that reminded me that some people are good only for
giving you white poohs, buying you teqila and rum.
but when the same people (awfully hesitating) take
your hand and take you in front of some italian designed
hotels, answering on なんで？ something like　えっと・・・
i try to persuade myself that you shall not laugh on it.

やっぱり年上じゃないと。