but i so amaze myself. honestly!
i call him in the middle of thursday after one fucking year.
and definitely clearly ask to give me all the time in the world.
here and now. in four days. as far as my schedule is up to one
month ahead at least..
i know, i am highly selfish.
but even yesterday i was so clearly told -- just wait a little bit.
i so amaze myself in not such a good way. and i understand.
but i can not change it at all (((
aaaaaaw.