but what was even more difficult is to choose --
to have the thing you want, here and now. and always.
or to cause the someone you love a great sadness.
or lying instead. i would never go down for deception.
but i did hesitate. i did hesitate to keep my rights, causing pain.
unbeliavable. i should keep it for the record of my possible disgrace.
okay, for my beautiful karma turning to be completely fucked up
i am hesitating even now, fighting all the apples falling at me at once.
taking all my patience. taking all my self-control and self-restriction.)
deleting a half of my phone book, dodging calls, cutting out as fast as.
i am honestly bad at keeping promises. i know, i will fail this one too.
but as long as i will try to be good in between. just a little bit.