eventually, may is a month for the new changes..)
just got back home from Okinawa this monday.
it was such an awesome superb honeymoon that.
i already want to buy a house there as soon as.
probably, it is nice to know that you always have
an island to run for an a family to rely on in time of needs.

(long ago i used to have a lover. he was a bad lover, but great artist.
always wanted to circle himself with strange enormous people,
he could not actually truly rely on but thought he always would).

the point is i so-loved the place, i stayed in for a year and three months.
some ones were fools, some ones were bastards, some ones were garbage.
but apart all of that mountain of entities i am lucky to have found the ones,
i honestly got attached to with all my wretched heart. and they know i do.
my people, my carass.

that is why i still have a sad feeling about all that we had reached there.
that is why i still have a great happy feeling about how we make it go on.
without wars, without fights, without those who would be better shut down cold.
you do not have to share a blood to be a family and you do not have to be family
with someone, only because you share with them some past, memories or genes.
any of it can be canceled, wiped off, deleted and not restored anymore.

trust, reliance, love, acceptance is what i would always love to pay back.
i would never forget as much as a hand, given and a knife, shared both.
...
as to Okinawa, it is my real green developed paradise.
blue sea, depth of the oceans, so much shikwasha liquor, imo, runaways.
white sheets and light blankets, sand in my clothes, salty hands around me.
laughs, joy, sparkles, sex, wind in the hair, open spaces, neon lights, future.
i wish we could stay there all together, always. till the end of the very time.

you asked me once back, if i put my life on you.
of course, i do. promise, swear, sign with blood.
get ahold of what is left of my detached soul ahead.

please.