i guess, the true love (?) is actually silent.
i always detested those, who show off about their affections.
where the fact, who you actually sleeping with becomes larger,
than the person itself. some kind of a low, but ultimate pride, m?
i am good, but i do miss. even now i use to see people, for who
they might become, not for who they are. inspiring the change,
asking for the improvements, waiting for the important line to be crossed.
but they do not, you know? they just do not get better. maybe, when you
are with someone, it becomes flat on some phase. not steady, but flat.
you got yourself a place, i gave away the rank and somehow it is already
decided that it is no need to go higher. because the desired place is achieved.

he never shows off, how much he cares. not a single world of our times together.
even though there is a hell of a long history on our shoulders. just those line ups
of [向かう方向は一緒。」「安定をさせる。」they say, a perfect partner is the one who
can read you, when you do not say anything. all of a sudden he is just behind your back.
checking your conditions, saying how no matter your trouble is, holding your shoulder.

we grew apart to grow up so much.
i can not believe sometimes, that he is the person who held my hand that night.
neon lights, dark alleys, rats crossing your ways, old cigarettes and house on fire.

they say, there should be no chasing each other in a relationship.
you just build it together. you just aim higher. you just go steady.

what i love the most.
that for him i am not a queen. i am just that girl, he saved that night.

night, we can do so much together.
you can not even imagine.

i could never forget how that moment became eternity.