another issues.
Charlie is already 24 by yesterday.
the time really flies way too much fast.
giving the warmest greeting i kept so high feeling that
there is a moment of something excessively ridiculous.
i am bad with random relationships. i do not learn how
to cut. i do not know how to keep such kind of the ones
in the frames of one night. i am not ever eager learning.

but either way they are just keep coming back.

probably, i love the fact that we ended up friends.
even now i still think that i am on the position in where i owe.
but i can not recall so many persons, who told me no. yeah.

anyway, he is gonna be back from States in july shortly.
definitely should meet up and talk about good old days.
...
yesterday bro subtletely reminded me of the fact that
i should accurately replace my engagement ring on the
right hand or take it off when i am working. we never
actually took the harsh way of changing them all into
marriage ones and there is only one kind of marriage
rings, i would change my into - but for that i have to
make my way far to Eire. well, that is an absolute fact.

at my work i should make as many illusions as possible,
truthworthy beautiful lies out of myself. the better you can
lie, the better you be paid. that is just an impossible scene
where i am speaking out about how i am greatly married
as i will never become a mother, i will never become a wife.
that is just something that can never be applied for myself.
out relationships are so much reversed and much of an...
incsest? ww i would love to say. let us call it endogamy.

for a so-called marriage in human terms i have all my freedom.
again, even my dearly beloved one are sometimes so bad at
reacting, hearing the word marriage as if i am chained forever.
night bless us all, if we speak about chaining, there is another.

even now and always i will stand on the position and opinion,
where i consider humanly marriage as the most stupid act.
of people, whose mental outlook is shirten and not strong.
but again, that is for me again. and for usual definitions.
we are hell far from usual.

but human beings do not know how far from usual defines.

i am honestly eternal child and forever betrothed to.
not of a reigning type, not of a raising type. never.)
and forgive my shallow quotation, i am loving it <3

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