you said a long long time ago
you were happy being someone.

i have my nails, colored green.

i have my payment day, coming soon.
triple charge makes me think that i will
be able to run for okinawa in the end w.

i have my birthday coming, which i do not
like, but i know that if i am with bro, it is so
gonna be the best day that i have ever had.
two thousands years. and it is not even a halfway.

i have dancing panda and procyon, dancing

i have that guy from Todai,
of my favorite idontgiveadamn type,
who is entertaining me recently. **

i have a new volume of Junjyou Romantica <3.

i have everything. i am so much entirely happy.
so i return to the thought where tis good to be me.
...
one drop of saddness.
but i feel so much sad for the people i am working with.
they come to the point where they can not love. hold. care.
coming rapidly very soon. desperately. without noticing it.
with the thinking that they will never need it in their life too.
they are so drawn. so cold and voidly rotten inside them.
my. if i had a chance once, i would love to save them all..
but i know, i cant. sometimes i feel sad looking at them.

they burn fast, they have nothing left.
but we are the ones, who choose the path. right, right.
this can not be ever judged. not for anyone. not ever.(

i do work in quite a distorted area.
but i love my work probably because i am the only
one who was granted the right to choose not because
of no options, but on his own will. and i do appreciate.
in my ranging i never go random. i choose. i demand.

but i would be dead, living just this part.
in the very end i am a child, who needs to be cared about.
i can not sleep alone, live alone and making my own career.

again, blessed i am for the options.