always.
the one, who will kiss you goodbye. no matter what. four times?
the one, who will call you by your name and do hear you out well.
what is more important - will be able to comprehend your sorrows.
definitely not the person for buying diamond rings and roses, sts.
not the one, who will be accomplishing your perfect date schedule.
but the one, who will share his connections with you and wont be
hesitating to paying off some thousands yen out of the bill, just cos.
and whom you can trust enough to sleep behind till the morning sun.
being just that good at kissing. goes without saying?
...
that was kind of relationship, i wanted from the one who hurt me most.
but i know best of all that i was guilty, claiming for something like care.
this is not care, not kindness, just that much of what can drag out of
仲良く。 but the most important thing is when you can talk about this.
talk about everything. talk even more. ask advices. asking for the help.
it is when you not care, how many hearts this person is sending out.
and where he is at the moment. what he is just doing at the moment.
but that is just that much that if you want it - you can text, meet and talk.
and when i was kissing this person goodbye tonight, i thought he was..
perfect?
at least, he is able to give me what i want. without any claims.
and i do know that at this point my text will be always returned.
i do not need more. but we definitely had a misunderstanding with
Ryu from the start. without even one agreement and so much of the
promises, that none of us could keep - it was just that of impossible.
i miss him. but this is perfect.
probably the age gap is really too serious to me.
but yesterday i did not feel my pride even once *O*
why? we are being completely alike, in many ways.
because that is how it should be. perfect harmony.)
aim accomplished, for now.
you know, Oliver. i wish you could see that.
am i getting wiser for making water and water work?
am i getting skillful? am i getting better at what you
did use to teach me back then from the beginning?
am i getting weaker and everything comes and goes?
i will ask you next time we meet. for sure.
@темы:
emerald shadows,
refined cruelty,
in all its grandeur