понедельник, 22 июля 2013
11:20

～fallin` angel, proceeding.

be bad, be mine.
sacredly flew back to Tokyo from Kagoshima.)
what could i say, surely it was impossibly great.
when you feel a bit of disturbance in your heart -
go somewhere in the mountains, next to the active volcano,
play with joyful dolphins in the bay, embrace the night city.
smiling on little cute trams, big illuminated wheel and all.

no sex, cigarettes and exhausted, haunted plays.
just benevolent ocean, turtles and country counters.

not that i will be able to neglect my essence in there.
just you know, sometimes even me needs place to be calmed.

might it be only for a couple of days,
i enjoy fly to the south and calming.

always.
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tanned (burnt?) like southern skies. extremely.

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четверг, 18 июля 2013
05:04

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be bad, be mine.
tell me, we both matter, don't we?

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четверг, 11 июля 2013
14:45

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be bad, be mine.
いい一日の過ごし方を教えようか？
まぁ、いいや！

イタリア行きて。
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what could be possibly more beautiful,
than a room, darkened with curtains to the night?
eternally, pleasant. eternally, hiding from sunshine.

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среда, 10 июля 2013
11:47

~we`ll run, where lights won`t chase us.

be bad, be mine.
sometimes i can say that many words for love.
sometimes it is just　うーん！

keep choking on my own passion, literally. hm.)

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10:52

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be bad, be mine.
i presume, our kind does mean to those, we care about.
yet, the moments pass, i turn it on and care, care, care./
like hell.

and yes, you can not change it about me. Ever.

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09:04

~here i am, the one that you love..(c)

be bad, be mine.
making preferences in buying a new bag instead of a room key.
hence what should i say, love?
the circumustances stay still.

dismantle. repair.

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вторник, 09 июля 2013
06:51

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be bad, be mine.
what comes with the eternal act of learning the ways
is the ability to be capable of turning your feelings off.
even, being crazy in love with someone, it is just that
impossible to be always dwelling in that, overwhelming.
i can not resist it, and i am not sure i will be ever able to
reach the point where i can walk away from these relations.
yet, i can temporaly neglect it and be all over it again once,
twice a month. might i keep it all, might i see it every day.

take my heart, i would come to not want it at all.
the strange impression of me, being partly human.
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sometimes it is just nice to fly away for a couple of days.
hence, two tickets to Kagoshima. to the lands of oceans.
go, go.

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понедельник, 08 июля 2013
12:09

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be bad, be mine.
you gonna love me like you ain`t loved nobody before.

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пятница, 05 июля 2013
13:08

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be bad, be mine.
gonna steal love.

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среда, 03 июля 2013
15:03

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be bad, be mine.
i will be working at fashion marketing department,
going to Paris colleсtion from times to times and
again, love who i want. no matter, what surroundings are.

but you know, i can be easily bought with a plate of pasta.
:D.

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вторник, 02 июля 2013
14:58

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be bad, be mine.
let us make clear one fact, guys.
i aint a good person and will always do as i please.
sometimes, without emotional edition, simply plain.
sometimes, bad things. and at times, even worse ones.

can you live without it? can you go on with? keep it up.
because i aint gonna change.

here it is for selfish. and i am the most of it.
will love who i want, will buy what i want. and.
will hurt who i want, intentionally or immensly.

always.
i might be adherent to someone, but i have a bad character.)

@музыка: Bon Jovi *Thief of hearts*

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08:14

~changing paradise.

be bad, be mine.
there is nothing more pleasant sometimes, than changing places.
it gives you that unique feeling of freedom, willingness, priorities..

there is nothing more important sometimes, than changing homes.
people used to call it betrayal, i have my dignity to call it a temporaly switch.
for example, my so perfect trip is to ride morning plane, flying back to Osaka.
alone. i already explained before why comparing to Tokyo, i feel there calmed.
take a long ride to the forests, hide in the mountains, eat rum and rasin ice-cream.
drink a lot of gin in the evening, use people emotional borders close at hand, play.
sleep in the great apartments, not getting furious when your toasts were burnt. ww

slowly, going along with your inner flow.

coming home again, being passionate about others again. honestly?
i just can not go and produce to the very final cut to the cord of the issue.
hence, i keep coming back round again and again.

probably once, i will. probably one day, we do. probably, you and i. but.
sometimes i just like sitting in a dark airport with shadowed lights, alone.
watching the planes, flying by. watching the green and blue lights, flashing.

i would write you a book how to rule, right at hand.
but you know, it is just getting tossy these days.)

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пятница, 28 июня 2013
08:17

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be bad, be mine.
take my word, the strongest love is always imperfect on basis.
that is why it does that twisted, morbid and moves you to edge.
a flickle heart is the only constant in the every world, probably.

but a great romance is always immensely distorted.
...
take it as a page from my handbook,
it just drives you crazy to your bones with its sins. yet.

could i really mark myself as eternal example of?.. w

we both balance. choose. return. for better or worse.
...
the perfect romance is never right from the start.
and because it is not right, it is that much astonishing.

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вторник, 25 июня 2013
13:15

~leftovers and flashbacks.

be bad, be mine.
there was something excessively tragic in spending your birthday
in a place, you have so many strange, twisted and old memories of.
i am not saying i was not happy to be there again, it is just that you know,
when it is all coming back to you and you are overwhelmed with a history.
your history. someone else`s history. your flashbacks, your pain, your glory.

we have been there and out, right?
more, than just one time.
i cried a whole river back out then.

there was something magical to see over your precious land from above.
blue lights and illuminations, glorious streets, wonderful hidden corners.
cheesecakes, lightning candles, flowing Milky Way above your very head.

tropic of Scorpio? tropic of Cancer?

i loved it most.
...
i loved it stupidiously much.

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понедельник, 24 июня 2013
00:50

~24/06.

be bad, be mine.
i am twenty three. i literally rule the world.

i am not talking about down to earth recent achievements, decent salary, etc.
because no matter how i want to disadmit it, there is just that much important something.
the importance of being earnest gives us a definite taste of old nice immortality at times.

we are lovers again.
stockholm syndrome never felt any better.

why do i want? what do i dream on my birthday?

there were times, i wanted you and now i did obtain it.
i would say, my cravings have been deeply fullfilled then.

i am twenty three.
i am happy now.

can you taste the eternal irony in that?
somewhere on the angle between Jupiter and Moon.

вечность - это здесь и сейчас.

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вторник, 18 июня 2013
12:39

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be bad, be mine.
離したくないし、離さない。

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12:34

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be bad, be mine.
that much cowardness to be happy for the greatest changes,
that would rather impose sliding into randomness in the act of love.

girl, are you not festive?

my hands are tremendously trembling.
i do revel in decepting myself.

we are, but.

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пятница, 14 июня 2013
10:19

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be bad, be mine.
悪いけど、決めるのはそっちではない。
どう考えたって。

で、
それはすごくすごくいいこと。

might i have not all the time in the world,
i will always have only my own choice to make.

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07:25

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be bad, be mine.
as much as it goes for retaliation,
at times infidelity is just measuring happiness.

just saying, for a record.

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07:10

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be bad, be mine.
i am not quite sure whether i am self-deceptive here?
but as a someone, who lays (reigns?) in a high kindness,
i would give a training period just some time for to see.
probably, my own happy ending will be written long after.
in another place, another time and with another person.

but you know, we do all have to be patient sometimes.
in order to be passionate out of the rails ever after. w.
i would not give out the names, just some nice details.
meaning bracelets on my wrists, random coffee in a hotel,
green tea bubble bath, lips, lust, love, the darkest deception.

maybe, maybe not. maybe, yes.
the scales are charging down, yet i am on the other side.

why?
am i that kind to give chances over my own happiness?
am i not yet that strong, giving charges to all out attack?

i say, charge. now or later.
those, who dwell in a hesitation, my heart will change, fall.
because nothing in this world would made me change me.

i say, go spades. eventually.

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