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воскресенье, 13 февраля 2011

06:59

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be bad, be mine.

probably, such evenings i adored the most.
strolling the night shibuya streets, missing the last bus home.
italian food and false alarms, teddy bears and much many on.
money, spent on vintage clothes and almost closed empty malls.
coldness of night and warmth of interlocked hands always n ever.

waking up in the mornings with iced coffee,
writing letters, remembering the new words,
watching over the recent photos and playing images.

eternal perfect life.
next month i am buying myself a huge SAT manual.
...
私の体を使ってくださいー。

that is i love the most.
the way of using the usual words.

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суббота, 12 февраля 2011

07:22

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be bad, be mine.

we are so fucking beautiful.
people say, we are the living portraits.

indeed.
...
today we are making a beauty salon out of home.
bro is dying and cutting his hair, i am straightening mine.
i mean, bro is straightening mine. i am bad at that badly.

even more beautiful to become <3

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пятница, 11 февраля 2011

07:58

~that is eternal love.

be bad, be mine.

my perfect bedding for all the times.
(excessively extremely unbelievably expensive waste of money!)

bro adores leopards, though.
i prefer purple leopard colors to think about it.
and black silk and black 毛布 and all in one.

it can not be described in words, how adorable is black silk bedding bed.
much more of a castle times, minding the amount of leopard colors <3
adore adore.

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06:12

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be bad, be mine.

i was wondering why, the one who is wearing masks
is way more natural and flashing in al thel characters,
the other one takes by nature. hence, the nature is weak.
the art of masks is eternal.

~~amen.~~
...
we would not change.
30 000 in one day, spent of black silk and violet carpets.

excessive like stars.

i am going to buy a beautiful green kettle today

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среда, 09 февраля 2011

12:17

昨日でー

be bad, be mine.

なんでイカセテくれないのー？
めんどくさい。

はっ？

(;つД｀

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12:09

~the days of water.

be bad, be mine.

i was a good kid when we were back to the north.
that is why at my plese bro from now on puts on a bad mask.
with the taste of the most harsh dialects and methods included.
i adore and it makes me laugh everytime.

i could have not forgot that at this time i can ask to turn it off.
this absolute water mode, which turns me on always elsewhere.
i can call it off. as a roleplay can be called of by the red light.

i can not call it off when it is real. when it is water and water.
because there is nothing to be changed with.

but i am good with this. i am not learning, just enjoying,

for now that is for the best.
until i learn how to hold the dolls without breaking.
on unknowing.

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11:55

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be bad, be mine.

i am restoring.
i call people back by my side.

and they return, with a definite happiness, felt inside.

me, going to the central mansion in a couple of months,
begging Ryu to forgive my attitude will come as no surprise.
that is showing not my wise side, but the fact i never learn.

in these terms. i do not let go. i call back.
i call it using, covering the fact of need.

fuck. i am still so much high to grow up.

i can call it my highness favourite hobbies.
but those, who teach me know i am actually failing myself.
even though it pleases me, it is pleasant and it will please.

when i actually will be strong, i will need no one outside home.
even for play.

sad, sad. but let us yay for the fact i am going to lives again.
guitars, cigarettes, the guys i adore and no sex, no sex, no.
just music, absolutely heavenly. <3.

i should learn one day, someday, maybe i do not know.
for now it is - thank you for coming back when i call out.
ehem./

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11:19

～残酷天使のように・

be bad, be mine.

これがあれば、ほかのはいらねぇ。

bro is right, our lives are immersively complete.
we do not need anything else. people. aims.
we do not need to wander around in serach of.
we have everything. not to long for something.
else.

that is why respectively, my wandering around
(put on a temporal stop mode) is nothing more
than a cure from boredom. toying. using. flash.
could have been lived without, of course. but.
in the terms of my childish manner prefered to be activated.

bro is also right at the fact, this world is freaking wretched.
i still can not believe, that person ended up dead cos of aids.
doing nothing, probably. just being very unlucky at that time.

indeed, we could not obtain all the luck in the world.
and sometimes it is.. fatal_?

that is why probably i stopped playing outside my home.
because me too can not have all the luck in the world *(
sometimes it should be considered even in our country.
which is peaceful and safe as hell. in a good meaning, m.
...
bro was digging the question about kids, pointing out the
fact that my child alone would be god itself in its whole **
my brother is excessively cold to the human race in all.
i do not know why sometimes he falls down to simple phantoms.
probably, the other side of being on the borders, i do not now (

triangle is not stable, i would definitely want to hate my kids.
which are tearing apart the oath and all coming along w/ that.
probably, of all the humans my own kids i would hate the most.
that is why. no way. at any case. no matter what i would get.
that is all about the mirrors, we keep.

speaking about which, we still can not decide where to move www
bro is denying everything but Aoyama, seems like :O
we can not afford Aoyama in the way, i would love to.
there is the point in choosing the most aristocratic ward.
but might as well live in the imperor court *\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\*

and indeed, we will move somewhere around there in da end.
...
17 february is 記念日.(kinenbi)
one thousand year of a definite oath.

we are good at celebrating this day humanly. very very.
going somewhere to enjoy the miracles of japanese kitchen.
the best in the world, of course.

yay, i want Okinawa in may so much.

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вторник, 08 февраля 2011

12:23

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be bad, be mine.

all my sins are refinedly beautiful.
deep enough to be even adored,
low enough not to be claimed aloud.

do not have to be atoned. atoned in advance.

i can not advance only one thing - let them go.
they are repeated and returned, reminding me.
that i could have done better, but have not.

i want the time come, when i will be able
to do perfect and forget at an instant. m.

now it still takes time.
...
bro is saying, i am too child to use people without being attached.
no matter for how long, even if that is one minute. no connection
with being bad or good at it. just the fact, which leads to 不安・
now. always? ever.

i can not erase the child part. hence i have to do better at skills.
out of my bed, out of my head technique.

probably, as the time passes.

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07:59

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be bad, be mine.

i can not believe, she begged me to protect you.
no one in this world could ever protect you, but me.

i always will. that is i can promise.

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07:55

~//

be bad, be mine.

it was a good week of holidays, actually.

too much snow in our hands, playing snowballs in a park.
watching over the night lights in american style cafeteria.
strolling down the streets of the town, lost in the mountains.
ocean, covering this town from the both sides. nowhere to.
run.

i was scared, but there was nothing to be scared of.
that woman, who obtained everything that she could.
she could not obtained warmth. probably, definite love.
but instead of warmth there was an inpenetrable ice.

that is when i got where is the difference, indeed.
no matter how many years pass, you will not speak to her.
the way, you speak to me. probably, it would lead me to ruins,
if ever you showed to me the coldness you were showing there.

i was ready to hate this queen, but i could not help feel sorry.
that i took out the last flashing out of the way, you were in (
i felt sorry. greatly. up to the tears in my eyes.

do we not care about our blood?
at this time, i can point out that we never did.
probably, for the best.

you were making lies for my sake. even more saddest it is.
we are guilty on everything, we could have ruined way before.
but i can love that mansion, you know. i could love it always.

once in a year. only.

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07:44

~flashbacks. //

be bad, be mine.

chocolate donuts, coffee in a bear cup and bird cards.
i am home.

probably, for the first time in my life i felt how it is.
to take a plane back home. how it actually feels.

it feels fucking excessive, dears. abnormally high.
i thought i would die out of my emotional increase.
honestly.
...
being called back to russia in a week.
bro is saying that is stupid. and 金もったいねぇ。
that is why i am pushing him about Hawaii in may.

last time tooth correction today, yay. <3.

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вторник, 01 февраля 2011

01:00

経験で・・

be bad, be mine.

it is easier to teach someone, who cares about you, rape.
then teach someone, who can not hold, how it is -- to care.

i love to choose the difficult (~~meaningless~~) ways.
but i never deny the easiest if the first do not somehow work.
that is as simple as that.

and it does work. <3.

こいつはほんとうに・・・

when bro says like this, i adore. honestly adore.
he can be excessively (yes, i love this word much)
over himself not forgetting to tell me that if he misses,
not to complain about my neck, being broken www

なんでもない笑

the current problem is i have to be a good kid in the central mansion!
scary people there do not care about my fallen and not pure self. um.
i am not allowed to use dialects at any case, keeping the usual voice
and showing my low human sinful sides under the way of being thrown out.

real central mansions are so central, indeed.

i can manage that, because bro promised me a chocolate if they accept.
how can i not be accepted? you do not know, how far i could get. arghh!
in the name of chocolate, of course.

i am shutting down my nervous trembling hands www
i am scared. but bro promised, eveyrthing gonna be all right.
in this we trust *)

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00:30

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be bad, be mine.

now to think of it, i am satisfied.
probably, it is not the end of the story.
probably, i will play the apriori fail soon.
probably, i will even enjoy it.

but what comes to an end now, ends now.
and night, it gives me so much relief *)
at least i do not have to sad my brother.
enough for him, he is destinied to shorten the
eternity with someone like me. つらいこと？ｗ

today evening is plane to Hakodate.
time to return to our own central mansions.
(yays, how i could forgot we do have ones www)
and i will see a lot of snow and the great ocean!

that is so much love, i can not describe.

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00:23

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be bad, be mine.

never share the bed with someone like you.

well, i love abstractions.
in general, i prefer to choose people by that.
whether it is home, blood type or fav. color.
probably, the place of living and decorations.
of the mansion, respectively.

sometimes i do think. there is something wrong in that.
that by this criteria a lot of ダメなやつ出てくる more often.
i love this criteria, though. sometimes it is kinda working.

but that goes everything into nothing with this very point.
and when i was told - *well i think we should sleep together*
(minding not sex, but the actual ability of sharing one bed.)
the first and second thoughts were nowaynowaynotaymore.
つらいことあったんだよね。

i would love to make this the first point of my personal list.
*the ability to sleep together and the level of tenderness*.
completely failed. minus zero i guess?

it hurts there where it can not be hurt.
i conclude, i am making this up this time again.
or relating to the after-emotional late crisis. yup.

now i think i did not care less about the blood. maybe.
i cared excessively about the central Tokyo views :O

but! yesterday bro happied me with the fact, that we
actually are going to buy that wonderful flat in summer.
(he forgot to tell me he had other 600万円？w)
so i can let go my morbid wish of the central mansions.
which not actually belong to me in the first place.
the place i left recently is nothing compared with the one,
i will get in a half a year. my my, how i do love concretes.

and no matter how you look at that - i got everything i wanted.
知らないうちに？

so probably that is for the best.
do not share the bed with someone like you. それはつらいこと。

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понедельник, 31 января 2011