and it finally IS one month away from home.

happily packing stuff, happily awaiting, happily.
these been the longest four months, i have ever had.
not anymore. never again going anywhere from home.
it such an amazing and never-ending-happening-every-
moment-here-and-now miracle - to be at home. to be.

all the things i gave up in life, all that i threw out in a blink
of an eye - it was so much worth it, the whole new world
would have been worth it even more and more and more.
nothing can be compared to being in where you do belong.

really, lively, sensibly, not-virtually belonging to this world.
you know, i never could have imagined this real, wretched,
sinful and 's not going along with the expectations world
can be so awesomely meaning, thrilling, exciting and blast.

if you ask me now,
this real world is really the best to 've been realized into being.
hell, yes. i can feel it with my every heart racing up rapidly.)

how people can choose living in the virtual when the sunrises
of this world are what should be chasing, when the snow of
this world is what to be catching into hands, when looking
into the eyes deep down is the one thing to be remembered?
people can't be blame due to their choices but can be pitied.
i pity all of those, who threw this world aside without trying.

i go steady in this with Leibniz.
probably the human beings are damn wretched and silly lads.
but this world is the best of what could have been realized.

it's been some years before i came to actually get the point.
Oliver, my credit to you for that you taught me how it's only
possible to treasure before the line of decay. it's absolute.
you are absolute <3. always will be on my personal altar.)

snowy and clear cold morning, lots of love and prayers.