thats quite a very old story about apples and temptations.
nothing in this life (and any other lives) will make break my oath.
but i know, that there are promises that i will break if giving now.
very human promises. very human affections. probably, at latest.
i will learn how to fix this tangles of mine within, but now i dont.
i dont know how. and i wont be deceiving you because i swore it.
we can make it legal, we can turn it back to the unforgivable sin.

but i know, i will be doing that.
just, in the terms of sin i will be feeling pain.
you will be feeling even much more pain too.

なんでもくれても、やれる。
できないことはできないこと。

i know, i make you sad.
i am so sorry about this.
but you had to know what it is.

probably, i will be crying every time.
when you say 許してあげてるよ。

that is so not human, that is just us.
forgive me that place, i dont call home.
forgive me what i have done and will do.

forgive me what humans never forgive.
they never forgive, but we are different.
forgive me my blood on someones hands.

probably, that is the only thing i beg you for.
or do tie me down to the bed with handcuffs.
this will do as well.

i cant give up this place, i cant give up myself.
at this stage, forgive. then i will forgive myself.