i am so much used to the fact that everything is at my please.
people. places. aims. luck -- are definitely put on their knees.
(not this is not a song, just randomly.)
that even tiny little fail in something not meaning at all indeed
leads me to the point, where i want to disgrace the whole world.
and where i cause pain impulsively to everyone who is near me.

just because i am irritated on the fact written above.

this is the way open and right only for someone,
who either is a queen or a child.
consciously never has been the first. yet?

that is why it makes out the world of
*fuck fuck fuck make it as i want it to be NOW!*
pretty much money wasting. pretty much randomness.
without thinking, just the first coming into hand means.

probably, i should eat more strawberry deserts. yups.
...
4 am. i can not sleep cos of this local self-made mess.

Oliver said stubborness is good when you know how to handle it.
if you do not know how to handle it, using the random means --
that is stupid, Isabelle.

if only i wanted to fix that, aw.
i just hope, tomorrow the world will return to my knees as usual.

or i will make it to.

おやすみなさいー。