つづく。
i just love excessively to read all these 3 years ago logs.
in the very end all of us were doing quite the same things.
the logs are looking the same, if we can not show love,
that is a made up care illusion, covered lightly wish to have fun.
cause of what, cause of boredom, of course. in this case,
we are using the same technique but reasons are different.
Ryu is doing such a thing because it is his attitude.
i am not even quite sure that he needs a reason for that w.
and that is why he was hurt or at least it seemed to be so.
we are doing this because we are beautiful and very bored.
and can work it out of our faces. maybe, that is why what
we are doing is more cruel and painful and not expected.
i can not show off that incredible つめたい attitude, as bro can.
sometimes i am looking closely when he is speaking with ppl.
that is the deepest ice i have ever seen. and maybe, Naoki too.
well, i have always knew that my oath is to love the ones, who
can be kind and care only to me alone in this whole world. <3
that makes me feel even a more special child than i actually am.
this style of conversation makes me think that in technique,
not character, bro and Ryu had a lot of the same kind, right.
and Ryu is caring even now if i would love to ask him that )
one of the most decayed person, i have ever seen and yet.
he is much better that wants to show. at least, in my case.
bro definitely stopped all his activities with me, being back.
but sometimes he is still being taken hands, glances and all
on streets especially by gaijins. i am honestly even like that.
because for now nothing except the inpenetrable ice is left.
話しかけられたけど、家でベル様待ってるよ！急がなくちゃ。
って感じ。
i am on a very low profile, allowing myself the rare datings.
just to be, most likely. not that i need it as much as well.
i guess, we do use the same methods with each other.
as Luchano used to say, that is simply terrific when two
skillful ones are correcting each other in the highest grades.
but we know of each other when the same lines are not working.
and when it is not working, we have to be ourselves. and warm.
bro is excessively warm. his warmth alone can fire the lives.
that is even funny that he never ever shows it to the humans.
even in the central mansion, he never shows it off to them.
on the contrast, i am excessively cold by nature. i love it.
it is difficult and unneeded for me to make up the fire inside.
but there are at least one, with whom i would love to share
all the fire i can create. and maybe, even more. more. more.
@темы:
emerald shadows,
violet illusions,
refined cruelty,
those, who obtained the first sunrise