today was such a wonderful day.
i was treated with banana coctails and strawberry cakes.
and then my hair was perfectly pammed and colored into
light caramel and cut. along with this i enjoyed sweets
and sliding questions about my local eternal happiness.
the point is that i love Erica, she is such a nice child.)
that is why i would never make her sad with doing some
ranging behind her beautiful kansai eyes. honestly, not.

...
partly cos i really like her, mostly because people have
no idea that my highness is not going into blind ranging.
probably it is even more difficult to become my lover than
become someone i can consider my family. my demands.
oh, my demends are legendary. and i am just not into it.
i am interested only in Keio canon (**) the highest grades.
for what its worth, i have Ryu for confessing my sins.

but it was kind of, way too obvious to ask me out?
i have no complaints, this guy is awesome with hair.
and he presented me sweets and treatment course.
15 000 yen and i did not pay anything. he is good.
he is quite funny.
and i am not sleeping with my friends lovers. きっとね。

but that made me think, how damned much i miss.
i know, nothing good can be traced out from me,
coming back to the c/m. and i know it will do me bad.
but every day i wake up, take my phone and dial number.
and cut. dial and cut. dial and cut.

we could become that close, we have taken the wrong path.
wrong is not bad, i did enjoy but it cut off all the roads to ruin.
i became not able to work it out in the way, as i felt to do.
i dial this number when i need help, when i am lonely.
when i can not replace the time without bro with all the world.
of all the roles, to be a back-up is the role, that person can not keep.
but i keep dialing this number for advice and help and everything else,
keep denying the words, the most simple words of care and memory.

i would love to care that much. i can do nothing about it.
just use when i need, operating with the consequences.
i was asking myself numerous times, why did he not delete my contacts.
why he keep answering on my requests and texts in the middle of nowhere.
why would he care? but that terminal *一緒に寝ればいいと思う*

we could have definitely done better, you and i.
...
Bershka came to Tokyo. i love it absolutely.
all those straberries and pineapples - love!
quite awesome spot, to think about it. true.