泊ってけば？って。

the always temptation of night shifts and day offs.
i am so much wretched, night. i am just so much.
i wish i could just live somehow without all of this (
and i am trying to replace Ryu, which is even more.

everyone can be replaced?
everyone except two of us.

and i am taking this shot into changing. not bad.
or so it seems to be. i just need someone, who.
do not ask unneeded questions.

just do what he has to do. that is so-so simple.
something, everyone could do better or worse.
being asked, respectively.

i am so tired of meaningless talks and everlasting dinners.
being overwhelmed with going into other activities.

but jeez, how much i do miss that person.
who was so much better that he wanted to seem.
no matter of how strong he wanted to show his bad.

there is just something, you can not fake. ever. ever.
there is one thing i will maybe never forgive him.

for that he cared.
even though he excessively should have not.