i assume that not answering can be accepted as no.
i should have let it go in january, i am still not able to.
there is nothing to moarn about. there was nothing.
but in that particularly awful case i decided to believe
that there was that certain something that gets on line.

was it?
how could we change the oceans withing us? never.
as i could say that person cared about,
as i could say he never gave a damn.

i should have learned before doing what i did.
Oliver was right - do not go random assuring yourself
that you will learn in the process because you will not.

and all the uneasy part i keep on repeat - it is mine only.

the bad part about it - it hit my skills and my pride also.
i came to be not interested in doing the same things
if there is not the same particular case and actions.
being precise - if it is not him.

jeez, i should let it go. four months passed.