honestly. that is as stupid as it could never ever be.
the deeper you go into this abyss the more it hurts.
you keeep on begging, you will be smashing to pieces.
yourself and everything around. all that matters for good.

it is just more than you can take here and now.
and he for sure warned you - do not care about
those, you are going to be random for. it hurts.
it hurts like damn hell and nothing could be done.

how more rounds of that pitiful self-neglecting begging?
how more tears for wishing about the star you cant take?
he will not grant you that. of all the people he just will not.
otherwise he would have already.

the most intense fail of all the times.
how it can be actually reversed?
how it can be not thought about?
how it could be stepped over again?

tangles within feel like sharp needles.
because of course it can not be done.
it can be only replaced.

but your selfish body dont want a replace, m?
じゃあ、どうしよもねえな。