i should definitely find to do something more profitive
than consciously continuing disgracing myself. yes.
if i only could ever explained myself what i need there
in the first place, life would have become much easier.
but i am famous for making the whole points out if myself.
respectively, when they prove nothing in the first place.

i know, it will pass.
but it takes time, and while it is passing, i hell remember.
and consider its meaning. how could i draw my attention
on something else. instead of climbing on a dead end? *(
...
this summer plan is dedicated to
a lot of massages, pools, skin care and travelling around.
horse riding, whatever else and if i had a free chance -
Paris or Dublin for some time. promised someone Greece
in september, which is not bad at all as well. just perfect.

now its milk ginger tea, letters and me.
...
and i am calling it a day <3.
yesterday we finally made our way to Hakkejima.
watching dolphins and sea makes me just so calm.
and i am never ever riding fucking jet coaster again!