this case is just as if a definite toothache.
from time to time you touch it with your tongue
just to check if it is still hurts. and yes, it hurts.

i wish my heart was hurt for this..
but my heart feels nothing towards. and never will be.
right, we agreed to shut off emotions from the start.

it hurts so much deeper inside,
from where you cant take it out.

the very true meaning of 傷つく。
...
there is nothing more meaningless in this world,
than the sentence that is not ended. it means
for sure you can be back and try to end it always,
but actually the hell is that you actually can not.
can not return and finish. and it is just so on you.

every time, every time.
i could not ever say that i am suffering.
but it is on my nerves and i would love.
i would love to get rid of it if there is a chance.