to be honest, Isabelle..
it fascinates me how much you have changed in such a short time.
you were against commitment and now you take someone`s name,
give up your life and move to the other side of the world for this.
so amazing.

do we change? no, we just recollect.
we just begin to remember old things.
the ones most ever important for us.

but i would have been wrong, if said.
that this person is not changing me.
he is. like no one ever could. never did.
the oceans within me are going calm on the surface.
the oceans deeper within start moving less in chaos.

cause i am not raving when i am with him. i do need to.
and maybe that is one of the most important things.
as Oliver is saying, it is both grace and curse to be us.
my nature is self-destructive, the angles within are sharp.
this flame is probably something, i always eagered for.

but the point is, i love my sister.
of all my family she could get me like no one else.
and all the things i could ever talk out, i talk to her.

just got a bunch of letters from her starting december.
made me cry.

how much i love her, gods.