it is been already almost a year, night )
and you probably remain as the only thing,
that never tended to fall into my loving arms.
i mean, i remember those days, we spent.
but were you ever there? was i ever there?..
in the first place.

i do not know, i feel regret i did not have you.
i could not have you, let us put it simplier.
you can (not) advance.

that is why i preferably stopped walking around.
that marked me with the thought, that me too,
fail once in a while. and i did not like this feeling.

no matter how you look at it, raving needs confidence.
of something, that you want, you can take. always.
love, i was shocked i failed. getting everything i wanted.
i failed.

anytime in my life,
if i ever were able to be back to that house, i would.
i swear, i would.

just because i loved it there, no matter how harsh it were.
writing it just because it is kinda of forwarding anniversary.

thank you?