and.
you know, there will be always people around me.
to claim their eternal love, to make sacrifices, to be
willing that much staying on their kneels behind me.
praying. adoring. worshiping. whatever it ever takes.
i do not like them much, because i dont like such an easy love.
it is always something, you can take. it is always close at hand.
i know how it feels. not that pleasant, to my very liking. yeahs.(
but sometimes i use such people for a moment of treasury.
when i am out of means and hands, when i am out of hearts.
tastes like plastic or very bad fast food, but well, i mean.
there are things in this world, where everyone will quite do.
seeing as an obstacle, at least as an object.
i put this people to my table as i am putting there a vase, naybe.
not to be dining alone, preferably. even though i can dine alone.
love it most of the times, actually.
i truly love the ones, whose love (so to call) i can not advance.
and that is that very temptation that keeps me chained to them.
people, who would never go at my please, they just so much to love.
that sweet taste of rebellion, riot and never - redemption. or fulfilling.
i am finding the utmost pleasure in drinking that transperent poison.
blood on the floor, smashed mirrors, shut off feelings and hell of lies.
i always fall for those souls, who definitely can not be ever saved.
at least that is more real to chase than accept those, who will love you anyway.
the last ones are boring to death. the first ones are so much tempting and tasty.
have the birthday of the one next week. gotta wish something greatly sincere.)
we did not ever break up with a period, in the end of the day. so it is just like..
an endless continuation of nothing. i should be genuinely named as a good girl.
still remember the bd of all my lovers and sincerely wish them all happiness.
never felt a tiny disappointment in anyone, always been grateful for. in every case.
were i ever asked if i feel as choosing wrong before -- nope, never.
at least, choosing is the one damn thing that i am thinking to have been taught right then.
@темы:
emerald shadows,
transparent poison