you know, i have been thinking a lot lately.
mostly about definite uncertain not concerned things.
mostly about one and the same topic, which just erm
going merry-round inside my precious little head, yes.
your name just aint going fucking out from me head. (!)

so, i have been hardly thinking.)
surely, love makes people stronger.
there have been so many movies, novels etc about how.
how it is actully epic to be falling in love and be loved back.

i would say,
love makes us tremendously stupid. excessively stupid like hell.
otherwise, why would we stop listening to a rational thinking?..
making a bad example out of me for all the eternity as it comes,
i say when you keep counting on your heart beating instead of
what people are telling you (rationally), there is not at all a surprise
that you can pass on twelve apocalypse going in a line without notice.
on a short notice, should i say?

i pretty much awared, that we are all in this mess because of love.
because of love in the first place it became messy, cruel and harsh.
because of love in the second place we are all sharing hope for the he.
(as in happy ending?) you probably know that apart of the fact that you
all keep sharing hope in my heart and my love, there is that little detail
that i do believe in extreme love as i believe in ponies - if you put it right
behind me, i would accept but if you keep on holding it through the words.

yups, i would consider it as the greatest lie ever just cos
it is just too sweet and dreamy and unbeliavable to be true.
here i am getting personal and sharing the fact that for you and me
it would be honestly unbelieavable to move to the happy ending just.
because that is us with all thatt excessivelly messing awful story.

i dont know.
do i believe in ponies in the very end?
do i beleive in starting over again all the book?

maybe. maybe yours. maybe not.
...
i am asking again,
who is keeping an answer sheet here?

because it is impossible to choose,
especially when you dont know between
what and what you actually choosing. oO.

am i stupid? surely. never fall in love sts.
live and learn version?