the recent chain of events lead me to the point, where i do not like Kate Spade,
because they kindly refused my talents, based on the fact that i do not work
Saturdays.) but in spite of that i kind of like NY, that is why i keep on hesitating
between Mark Jacobs and Ray Ban, one more mouton and another lip gloss..
the thing is my eyesight is dropping gradually, i somehow dislike correction also.
that leaves me probably either with Ray Ban with amazingly expensive lenses or.
simple sunglasses without a mark, so maybe i would just give it a go this month.
...
you know, there were times i have been at my worst. almost near to be the lost cause.
but those times have dramatically passed, there were a lot of (human) sacrifices too.)
that is why, i will always have an upper hand. maybe, sometimes it looks a lil bit crafty.
i do not give a damn. when i feel like pushing, i will push. when i feel like annihilating..
well. there were times when i have not got any visible power, but now i do. so, please.
no apologies.
...
these days a very interesting question is coming to life. i mean, okay.
i used to date someone, who could buy a plane with his credit card.
i used to date someone, who hardly could buy me a cup of coffee after.
i actually do not care about money, but people keep asking why i do.
the problem is, apart from the financial adjustment, i do admit stability.
i can be madly in love with someone, who earns 1000/hour cashing the register.
i can cash out all my credit cards for this one, not asking for anything in return.
hence, this is because i can. because i am stable, self-assured and la la la..

纏める is a good word. i seek in my partners stability, assurance, security.
and i cherish a thought that someone, who does not want to be more is NG.
human beings are interesting species. they can always be something more.
that is why there is always an open way from the bottom through the skill up.
i know, that truly rich people (succeeded ones) remember how it is to suffer.
from needing or so. well, i do.

that is why i want those, i choose to grow. just a little bit.
all of us can be flawed. i am the queen of the wretched, for night`s sake.
but when someone asks me, will you love me as madly as now if i will be
cashing the register for the rest of my life?.. my answer will always be no.

with all the love, compared.
i will stand by one, who gives me security. even if i do love him less.
because that is what called a rational proceeding through the life course.

i mean, i could always have all of the rest.
but. but.