i would never want to be a mother.
i would never want to ride up my career stairs either.
i enjoy my still life and who i am, without hesitation.

but let us say, i sign up myself for a job.
people here do claim their hopes pretty much harsh.
they apply to 200 companies and still continue doing
the job till the rest of their lives, which they so dislike.

but let us say, i am elite.
i saw people from my beloved Keio breaking their limits.
because good roots stay for nothing if you ain`t got skills.

i am brilliant, but there are a lot of things, that i lack.
i lack attention and i reject all the forms of subordination.
i am lazy, but i want 4500000 annual income eventually.

i dislike people, yet i want to work in sales.
i do not work Saturdays, yet i want bonuses.
...
you know, life is always as hell as scales.
but i applied to 13 companies, i got 7 to screen me through interviews.

i am good.
but i know what i want to do and it is really hard to contain it in one work place.
we will see. i still so much hesitate about me, actually doing a permanent job.

that is what i do - i come and go when it pleases me.
i lack stability, i despise attachments. permanence.
is mythical, when it runs through my blood.

we will see.