i can fall in love, come around, get married to someone else.
but there are just times, i so desperate want to lean on you.
we were not acknowledged, but had to be together at that time.
also did not have time to know each other better, go out properly.
i have so much on you, but sometimes it is just smoke and mirrors.
you are the most cruel, harsh and crazy person i ever been with.
and maybe, i would always see in you more of a brother, than lover.
although, you as well is one of the best lover i ever had. have. will.

you are the damnest entity in my family.
and i love you so. always so harsh on me.
but giving me sweets and cigarettes after.

i hardly ever wrote something about you.
because it is always something other in you, than partner.
but without you i could not imagine, how i have got this far.

probably, we do not show our feelings mutually.
but that is just so much of history between us
to store in a decades of the lifetimes, honestly.