do you know, what the scariest thing is?
not the fact that you won`t be able to touch me, speak to me, hold me close.
but the fact of those little moments, left. when you look back on me, speaking.
i will never find those matter to me again. i will never find anything you say, matter.

it is devastating to know, how easy i am to let go.
but i never forgive the broken promise.

which is maybe not so enough to get yourself killed.
but good enough to make you dead to me once and for all.

do not you get it, love?
i will never feel for you. anything. not a single sign.

i hated R. but we raised the hell together, he stole half of my money..
might he be alive i would break him down without any hesitation.
they say, our love was a legend. but nah, legends now are rotten.

but you, you.
you does not matter to me anymore.

and it is just so so sad.
believe me. one day you will wake up and feel all that devastation.
but there will be no one to save you from that eternal void inside.
that moment will definitely come. but we get just what we deserve.

i wanted to give you so fucking much.
a little kingdom and my own shimmering heart.

but that`d be nothing good from you ever since. i am sorry.