-how do you turn off your emotions?
-just go to the settings.
(c)

it is one month before Xmas and so much drama every year.
i do want to concentrate on ordering my framboise cake, but
something keeps circling me on other matters, which don`t resolve.

that is why i order a case of Italy wine instead.
for the hell sake, they say rose is good this year?

there is just time, when enough is enough.
so i do, i do wave your guns on somebody new.

a good king or a good leader knows, that there is no end.
eventually, you have to prove every day like it is your first.

i remember my first day, when the competition was over.
there were no cakes and candles, just the purifying truth.
you only are to win if you are stronger, than the others.
that no matter how badly bleeding or broken you are, you
keep fucking fighting. tomorrow, the day after that, again.

in our kind of job,
you can not just become grateful. you can not simplify things.
you can not throw mercy about and around just cos you want to.

here it is not a French historical movie.
where you can become a king by blood or where is someone, who
teach you how to. because no one, but yourself ever could. night.
you become soft and you get yourself a new year golpe de estado.

i hate the feeling.
when you know, you are right, but praise to everything you know
that you might be wrong. because it is just so, so, so.. frustrating.

we are painting the castle green.
i will ask them to wear my old wounds.
i will be sad for a while and drink a lot of wine.
but we will roll it through and thorough, no shit.

can i get my cake back, already?